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Or Nyarlathotep, it is ACTUALLY your subconscious knowing you are going along with lies because you are afraid. You'll never find it and best it if you don't even know to look for it, let alone listen to it, tell it to fuck off, and get the strength to tell the truth. You won't be able to understand other people, let alone yourself, if you don't do it. The whole world is distracting you... because you want it to.
pipe up any time....
