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And I've broken my own heart.
My zen drained in an instant, and desire has rendered me inert, pathetic, old, useless, in need of some heroin... good as dead. Who am I trying to fool? Never. I will never save even one sentient being.
The only sign of life was a fleeting thought to threaten you if you won't get it for me... yesterday... but even that evaporated into the completeness of defeat. I do not own a gun. I can't kill you with my glare just now either.
I never had kids because I've never lost my certainty that this world is no way to treat someone you love... and... here is proof... irrefutable proof.
always and any time....
