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All of them, according to physics human beings came up with, over a hundred years ago, all of them can be ours. And, all your encounters with aliens? Humans can be brainwashed. Humans can be made to think what other humans plant in them... on the fly... not even using gizmos or drugs or physical proximity. How do I know?

A number of telephone calls from my teacher addressing whatever had been in my head in the moments preceding each call. My teacher never, that I can tell, put any ideas in my head, but called me way too many times in precise accord with what I had just that moment been thinking for me to doubt they were connected. A question popped into my head, or an insight that was long overdue and heavily anticipated for moving ahead on my way, and... bip bam boom... that phone would ring and my teacher would be speaking to the precise thing that had just started rolling around in my coconut.

I knew a woman who had big trouble with the urges to harm herself. Nobody wanted to bring it up with her... but me. I flat out asked her. I told her I could hear her in her room at night and it sounded like she was hitting herself and what the heck is up with that? She told me she did it because somebody was getting in her head and trying to get something out of her, trying to shove her around, and the only thing that worked against it was pounding on herself. I took her to my teacher to learn how to block that. And we're not talking space aliens. We are talking regular humans who have just honed certain human faculties getting into her head and trying to have their way with her. It was good that she knew it was not her, but she wasn't clear enough to deflect it without some help learning how.

I have actually heard other people's thoughts a number of times. Heard them. As in they are thinking them and I am hearing what is not coming out of their mouths. I have found over the course of my whole life that I somehow inexplicably start sounding like someone else, everything I'm saying is coming out wrong, when trying to relate with other people. It has been so vexing I could just chainsaw down a block of buildings, but the brute fact of it is, I am being plagued by what that person thinks of me. I know what they think, even if I won't let it come to the fore in my mind, and I goddam start sounding like who they think I am, or are afraid I am, instead of me.

I'm a really, really good receiver. I think I'm also a good sender, but I have no concept of sending, no ability to insert things in others' heads consciously. Which, of course, is something I want way so terribly badly and my teacher staunchly will not help me with one iota. Rightly so. I'd fuckin' snap you out of yer damn murderous delusions so fast you wouldn't know what hit you and you would not have done it yourself... which... is MANDATORY, MANDATORY, MANDATORY... no matter what!

Fuck!

I hate that!

Everything horrible is born there.

Even so, I love my teacher beyond anything any puny earth language can ever start to express... and refusing to help me mow down miscreants is a big part of why.

The psychopaths know all about this. They weaponize all powerful things... first and foremost... before any other consideration is the weaponization of powerful things. They can use those who can get in your head to implant anything they goddam want. If you are not able to defend yourself from it, which most of us are not, they will put whatever the fuck they want in there, and you will believe it's your own. You will go to your grave certain it's your own experience and not what someone else put in there.

For all you know those weaponized human energetics masters are up there in our, our, OUR triangles and saucers, psyching you into believing they're from Betelgeuse... and using your noggin for a telephone.

This would not be so if you had been allowed to grow up as a true human.

But that has not been allowed on this planet for millennia.